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17 November 2008 @ 06:58 pm
Angsty Drabble  
[drabble] Captive*
* Captive is another term for PRISONER.
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : akame
Rating : PG15 for angst and some psychological stuffs
Summary : Kamenashi Kazuya’s world turned upside-down after he got captivated by someone… by something.
Warning : delusional!kazuya, un-betaed
A/N : taken from Kazuya's POV and this was totally random. The idea came when I saw Jin’s posters in my room. And I’m start to think that maybe I had been captivated too. XD


They said that I was crazy.
Maybe that’s true.

I was crazy about you.

But why did they make such a great fuss about that ?

They said bad things about me… about you… about us.
They said that it was impossible for us to be together.
They said that I must wake up and face the reality.

Screw them.

Why did they poke their nose in my damn private life anyway…?
THIS IS MY LIFE. Not theirs.
I was the one who choose how I’ll live my live.
And they have no right to order me around.

“ Wake up wake up… Wake up from your delusion and face the reality “

But I didn’t want to wake up.
I didn’t need to face the reality.
THIS IS MY OWN LITTLE PERFECT WORLD.

What did I want…
Is just staying here beside you.
Watching your intense gaze directly at me; enjoying every details of your figure.

“ Kazuya, he is NOT real…! “

BUT YOU ARE REAL.
I knew the fact.
For me, you are always real.
AND THIS IS THE REALITY FOR ME.

I speak to you, even you never replied any single word back to me.
But it’s okay.
I wished to hear your voice, but I won’t inquire you to speak out.
I LIKE YOUR SMILE BETTER THAN YOUR FROWN FACE.
And that’s why people said that silence is golden, rite ?

Jin…
I love you.
I love you so much…

And they said that I was crazy.
So it was true then—I was crazily in love with you and I won’t deny it.


I stepped closer to you; tried to feel your warmth.
I tried to touch your lips, I tried to caress your skin…
I closed my eyes and pushed my lips against yours…

But my fingers found nothing—only two dimensional canvas.
And my lips tasted nothing than paint and the colour’s bitterness.

I fell on my knees.
Tears flowing over my cheeks; and I let them fall from my chin.
I sobbed quietly; captivated myself closer to you and told myself that everything is gonna be okay.

They said I was crazy.

Maybe they were right.
I am the one who created your figure on the white canvas; painted your perfection all by myself.

I fell in love with my own painting.
And I knew that you are NOT exist in this world.

But it was okay.
I still love you no matter what.
YOU ARE ALIVE IN MY WORLD.
If it need me to live in dreams to made you alive, I’ll sleep forever.
That way, you’ll stay by my side.

And it’s really okay, really okay.
They have said that I was crazy anyway.


—end—


a dark and angsty drabble~
wrote this late at nite before I went to sleep... (>.<)




 
 
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ylhen12ylhen12 on November 17th, 2008 12:05 pm (UTC)
angsty but this is really good!^___^
thanks for writing this=^-^=
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: akame is love~mizuno_hikaru on November 17th, 2008 03:45 pm (UTC)
u r first~!!
*gives u cookies*
thx 4 reading and commenting dear ♥
ylhen12ylhen12 on November 17th, 2008 03:47 pm (UTC)
thanks*munching cookies*^_____^
梨桜菜 + 仁flickerinflight on November 17th, 2008 12:43 pm (UTC)
i loved how the truth/reality unfolded at the end.

beautiful drabble :)
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: closed eyesmizuno_hikaru on November 17th, 2008 03:45 pm (UTC)
ahaha, yesh... a quite ending ne?
thx 4 reading and commenting ^^
puffie_hanchanpuffie_hanchan on November 17th, 2008 01:46 pm (UTC)
this is good (^^) love it~
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: fixing hairmizuno_hikaru on November 17th, 2008 03:46 pm (UTC)
thx puffie-chan~!!
glad u like it =D
Vixachu!myxstorie on November 17th, 2008 01:56 pm (UTC)
Oh wow! I loved this! Short and..well,not sweet at all,very angsty, but amazing! <3
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: amaicon akame eatmizuno_hikaru on November 17th, 2008 03:46 pm (UTC)
thx 4 reading and commenting~ ^^
glad u enjoyed it ♥
allboutp: smiling ryoallboutp on November 17th, 2008 04:51 pm (UTC)
uwaahhh soo sad~
jin felt in luv wt his own painitng/illusion??poor thing
i wish some fairy wud spiil the fairy dust n poof! kame comes to life!
hehehe silly me
but its nice,but sad, full of emotions
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: cal jinmizuno_hikaru on November 18th, 2008 02:13 am (UTC)
ahahaha...glad u like it.
but u got it reversed. it's kame who painted jin and fell in love with his own creation...

LOLZ
seriously, after wrote this fic...i wondered if i had captivated too. i mean, i saw jin's poster in my wall and 'aaw, i wished u alive and stood in front of me rite now... o.0)
Margaret Francis Lawrence: Ge-chanameno_hana on November 17th, 2008 07:55 pm (UTC)
angsty yes.. but dark?
ow.. i don't think so..
actually i know that thing.. it'ssss.. eeermmm.. that old story about the Master who fell in love with his own creation (i tooootaly forgot the names.. >.<) and i like that story.. thus i like yours too.. 'cause there's something interesting in that train of thoughts - Jin as Kame's creation.. maybe even.. maybe someone could write (if one catches the line.. >.<) continuation...
(ne.. und actually there was a big thought in my screwed mind.. errmmmm.. could you please allow me to translate Love Winter and Snow pls.. though i don't know if i can properly accomplish it but i wanna give it a try.. can i onegai?)
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: green park jinmizuno_hikaru on November 18th, 2008 02:16 am (UTC)
eeh, tell me the story if u remembered it ne?
sounds great,i wanna read too~

translate? into what language?
but it's okay... give u the permission as long as u credited the fic to me ^^
Margaret Francis Lawrence: RyoKameameno_hana on November 18th, 2008 04:00 pm (UTC)
russian.. ^.^ und credits will be of course.. like i would write my name under your work, eh? ^.^ there's no way.. thanks i'll try.. ^_^
here's the myth
but where can you read the real thing... i just don't know.. 'cause there was a certain writer... not the myth itself but a play in the same case..
smth like that
i like that play.. though i don't know why.. und also i've seen russian ballet on it..
(hope likns are allright?)
Margaret Francis Lawrenceameno_hana on November 18th, 2008 04:02 pm (UTC)
oh.. my bad.. i've used incorrect link..
here's the one i believe..
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥mizuno_hikaru on November 19th, 2008 12:39 pm (UTC)
hehehe... ic~
links are alright =D

hehehehe...
u were free to translated it. just credit the original fic to me. sth like 'translated from mizuno_hikaru's Love,Winter, and Snow' in the summary or the author notes...then it's okay =D and if u linked the fic with mine, it's better ♥
Margaret Francis Lawrenceameno_hana on November 19th, 2008 01:06 pm (UTC)
yay! i was intented to do that.. btw it's almost done.. now in a betaing phase.. ^__^
thanks a bunch again! *chu*
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♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: akame is love~mizuno_hikaru on November 18th, 2008 01:10 pm (UTC)
thank you putriii~~~~
yup, hidup itu pilihan.
en hidup kita itu harus kita yg pilih en jalani~
ILUSM too put ^^

btw ntar sabtu tgl 22 ada acara di kino ps yg let say jyanis itu u pergi put? acaranya mule jam 1... u tinggal di jakarta daerah mana ny sih? asik klo ketemuan hehehehhe~
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♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: eating jinmizuno_hikaru on November 19th, 2008 12:30 pm (UTC)
ough... gonna miss u for 3 days put >.
andee: atsui kameannedee08 on November 18th, 2008 12:55 pm (UTC)
this is amazing. it's written beautifully.
poor kame though. but it's a good thing he puts a lot of faith in his love for jin~

thanks for sharing! =3
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: cal jinmizuno_hikaru on November 18th, 2008 01:11 pm (UTC)
thx 4 reading and commenting~~!! =D
yeah, poor kame...
but glad u like it~ ^^
Nihonjin.Tensai;;Anjaela♥nihonjin_tensai on November 18th, 2008 03:35 pm (UTC)
wow!! this is gooD! really good!!! thanks for this!!^_^
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥: closed eyesmizuno_hikaru on November 19th, 2008 12:33 pm (UTC)
i'm the one who should thank you~!!
thx 4 reading and commenting =D
glad u like it ♥
Pika Pika ぴょん..: hottieshapika on February 11th, 2009 09:03 am (UTC)
Wow!!
Its reallyyyy.......
Just.......
*speechless*
♥ ミズノ ヒヵル ♥mizuno_hikaru on February 11th, 2009 11:35 am (UTC)
ahahaha...
i knew, this one is a lil bit extraordinary =p
thx 4 r&c ^^